Today I had an appointment with my oncologist.  I was looking forward to hearing about the results from my recent scan.  The idea was that we would learn how this scan compared with the one taken when I was first diagnosed.

My appointment was in the afternoon and all morning long I filled the day with busyness to keep my mind off the upcoming appointment.  I wanted to be positive and hopeful.  I wanted to hope for the best but at the same time I wanted to be prepared if the news was less than positive.  The appointment finally arrived.  I was prepared for every possible report, or so I thought.  As the Dr. started talking about the scan he said, “the technicians did not know they were supposed to compare it with a previous scan so we do not have the comparison results.”  My heart sank…I was so looking forward to hearing the results.  My oncologist went on to assure me that the comparison would be good…but it was not the same as hearing they had actually viewed the two scans side by side.  I thought I had prepared myself for every possible report, apparently there was one I had not thought of. [Read more…]