This morning I walked into my office a little later than I had planned. I was already behind schedule. My goal was to get in early and straighten things up and get things in order so I could function well for the rest of the week. As I sat down to begin “pushing papers” and uncovering the top of my desk I accidently bumped my mouse and my computer screen came to life revealing my computer’s desktop. I was struck by the way that my computer’s desktop, cluttered with a bunch of “temporary” and “important” files was beginning to look a lot like the desk I was sitting behind. Click, click, click I began to remove some of the clutter on the screen and then pushed a few papers…back to the screen for a few minutes and so the morning went until I got that first phone call.
In the midst of my de-cluttering I was struck by how at times my life can begin to feel this way…there is so much going on. I have filled my days with so many appointments that I simply move from one to the next…I begin to feel rushed, overwhelmed and then tired. Where does this come from? Why is there this sense that the busier I am the more that is getting done? It was not the way of Jesus. Time and time again, when there was much to do, when there were people to feed, heal, teach and simply be with Jesus snuck away for some time of quiet with Abba Father. It was in those moments that God met him in special ways, helped him to see, understand and embrace the call upon his life and filled him with the strength to move into the special role God had invited him into. If Jesus needed those times what makes me think that I will not? What makes me think that I can live among the clutter of this fast paced, overly busy world and not need to stop and be still, inviting Abba Father to speak into my hurried, harried and overwhelmed life?
I stopped the mouse from clicking…put the papers down…sat in silence for just sixty seconds…inviting God to fill me with a Spirit of Grace, Peace, Strength and Joy. A mini retreat in the midst of work day.
Abba Father, thank you for your promise to meet us in the midst of the clutter and chaos of life. Amen