Why am I at Peace?
As I shared earlier, my last oncologist appointment was very clinical. It was emotionless. We talked facts. There was a reality to be addressed and options to choose from. The encounter lasted less than half an hour. Looking back I found myself wondering why I responded and acted in such a way. I was almost Spock like. “Yes Jim, the cancer is back. No reason to get emotional. Our options are pretty simple, which one do you want to choose? No reason to let emotions get in the way.” How could it be that I was so peaceful when I was facing another twenty four weeks of chemotherapy?
Questioning my Peace
Thursday morning I was in my office and that question still haunted me. Last time around my world was totally turned upside down. This time it just seemed routine, normal. As I slowly made myself push papers and do the work before me my mind kept returning to the question. What was different? How can you be so peaceful in the face of this? [Read more…]